Oddly enough, after we’ve found the joy of a life in Christ, we’re still human. Before our moment of salvation, we were “me” focused. Oh, I know most of us cared for others, took care of our families, gave to charity, etc. But the end game was always about how it made me feel. I gave to charity out of a sense of guilt. Toss a buck in the Salvation Army kettle and I felt pretty darned good the rest of the day.
Life after salvation doesn’t always fix that problem. We still tend to give because we read in the bible that we’re expected to give. Most of us eventually come to a place where we truly look forward to giving opportunities like a Michigander looks forward to spring. We learn to love our spouses and truly enjoy those moments when we can offer help or comfort. Heck, we even find that it’s enjoyable to take the abuse of fire breathing atheists.
But most of us will struggle with one last annoying little “me” corner of our brains. We go around concerned that we’re not doing enough for God. Or that we don’t give enough. Or that we still harbor sinful thoughts and do sinful things. What if I’ve gone too far? What if God pulls my “saved” status from the book of life? What if seven chapters a day of bible study won’t cut the mustard seed?
You see the difference between the “me” before and the “me” after? There really isn’t any. It’s still a focus on self instead of a focus on God.
You’ll hear me rant about this often. Stop focusing on how much or how little you’ve done for God! You can’t do enough for an eternal God. Through careful reason, you’ll realize that you really can’t do too little. If you walk three steps of an infinite road or run a hundred miles, how much closer are you to the end?
Your salvation was bought and paid in full with the blood of Christ. Don’t flatter yourself into believing you can pay that back. And don’t render Christ’s suffering meaningless by believing that you can lose your salvation because of the occasional screw up.
Once you grasp this concept fully, only then are you of any use to the Master. He doesn’t ask anything of you, but He asks for all of you. Surrender the “me” to Him. Once you’ve done that, you’ll know true freedom.